I haven't posted in about 2 weeks. Have I been ridiculously busy with my own life that I couldn't devote 15 minutes a day to this blog? Of course not. I guess it was just me being lazy that got me like this. Bypassing that, I've written more poetry than I have in a very long time. Once, I had a long-distance relationship with this girl and I'd leave a poem on her voicemail after she went to bed so that it would be the first thing she heard when she woke up. Even though they got cheesy and repetitive to the point of losing all creative appeal, I thought it was the least I could do. This woman cheated on me however and I vowed to never do something like that again. I lied.
The poem that I'm going to introduce to you is titled 'Blinded'. Its short and to the point of the current state of mind I'm in, taken out my journal of daily thoughts. Yeah, I'm deep :)
Blinded
I can go through life like nothing bothers me when I know internally a flame of acid is smoldering slowly in my heart
I wake up and sigh...why does shit have to be so dense? Too much of a man to cry so if you ask me what's wrong, I'll prepare my false smile and lie
I'm a bat, forever crashing into shit with my lack of perception of the caves of life with the sounds of reality barely gracing my ears. Flapping helplessly until I eventually grasp reality or die smashing into walls
I buy shit that doesn't carve a shard of happiness with me because rarely does shit initiates my happiness, whatever the fuck that means. I remain waiting for the ray of sunshine to bleed through and obliterate the darkness of my heart forever so that I myself can form...a true smile. Without the restrictions of life.
I long ago refused to be a turtle that hides from the world with its thick shell coated with salmonella poisoning. I will remain in the open outside of my haven...to search. In the darkness without a flashlight.
I'm far gone.
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